EvEn If~~~
HuMan NatuRE is whaT i call it 2 Be…isn’t it? i guEss so maybE or iT may Not seeMs to be eitHer. 3.20am on a TuesdaY morniNg & i shouLd be In my DreamlanD of minE but i am Not theN whaT is my minD thinkIng of.
PerhaPs recaptuRIng some imAGEs & worDs thAt is flowing into my MinD, HeaRt & souL. thESe worDs becamE so painFul thAt i juSt had to take it iN no maTTer hoW much I wouldn’t wanT to.Been REadinG my JournaLs …REgArdlesS of who is IT from…my BesT frienD, buddiEs, even my loVEd onEs..iT doES not REally matter at ALl..reALly! EventuallY, the feeling of Lost, despair and sadNEss camE by & teARs floW dowN mY cheeKs …hoping tHat huRt will go By After a GOod CRy…buT it doesn’T seems to be so! Why??
NoonE caN eVEr tell u ur MistakEs & Faults thaT you havE committed onLy hopinG to realizE it urself & by tHat timE it’s simplY faR too laTE…isn’t thaT the cASe. it muSt be thaT way. MAny A timES, how i wished tiMe would juSt stoppeD at thaT particulAr moment withOut haVInG to think so mUch abt anytHIng, but Its neVEr possIble in realIty.
i trulY beliEVed in Life…somEwherE someDay theRE musT be thaT specAil Some1 whO will Be thERe in Ur liFE who LEavEs u somethiNG special..it MAy be juSt words, memoRies or even juSt a glanCe of thAt person…buT theN it SomehoW affECts u in LifE & u caN hardLy forGEt abt It.
EveN iF promiSEs thaT arE laid to u maY noT seems to bE fulfil buT somehoW it’s juST meaningful…at lEAst that’s hoW i feLt!
Even if that somEoNE tells u thaT he/ she wiLl neVEr evER leave u buT promisEs to staY witH u till ThE day he/shE dies…but ultimaTEly leaves u, it’s stiLl givEs u memorieS…a good waY to REmember that person i guESS!
EvEn if somEone onCE tells u how muCH their Luv is for u…u Had nEVEr onCE doubted theM until onE day they leaVEd u 4 good….at LEasT u knOw the Pain Of it.
EveN if OnE day you Are giVEn the ChanCE to see thaT someonE agaIn knoWing that it WoulD leave you in TEArs agaiN, ultimaTEly you wOuld still opted for thaT very one MomenT of chanCE juZ to be abLE to take a GLance off hiM knowinG thaT he/she is stiLL gettinG on weLl…at leasT u knoW thaT in ur heARt he/she diD not MAke a wronG decisioN in leavinG you!
EveN if ONE finE day u FinaLly goT to knoW the REal reasOn for givinG u up…no MAtter how Much u wouLd like to haTe him/her somehow u COulDn’t DO so…at lEASt you knOw you Have tried.
In LiFE …thERE are just fAr too manY "eveN if" so whaT can WE do? ouR heaRTz aRE jusT so passionaTE, emotioNal abT onE anotHer thaT we can’t evEN beaR to hated onE anotHEr knowInG how painFul anD hurTFul it caN be fOr us!
TEaRS comES alonG when REgRETS, HappinESs happeNS being it gooD or bad…LEttIng GO happeNs when DEspaiR & DIsappoinTments fillS u up isn’T it so TRue! thAt’s hoW i feel!
No MatteR how LifE is meaNt for Us to be…we STill HAve to be BRaVe and moVEd on isn’t thaT so reasOn becaUse timE will nEVEr wait foR us. EvEn if i FeeL so tired and weARy, evEn if sun riSEs and Sun SETs daily..buT someThinG neVEr chanGE that is ouR identitY …who WE aRE….thE feelinGs We aRe borN with…with thAt i thankEd GOD for That for givinG me that STrengTh & will to moVe on in My dAily liFE, teAchinG & GuidinG me in thE correcT path to taKE and TO leaRn ….
